{"id":3117,"date":"2025-01-06T18:30:51","date_gmt":"2025-01-06T18:30:51","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/justpaste.in\/blogs\/the-hidden-struggles-behind-my-im-fine-smile\/"},"modified":"2026-08-03T18:27:39","modified_gmt":"2026-08-03T18:27:39","slug":"the-hidden-struggles-behind-my-im-fine-smile","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/justpaste.in\/blogs\/the-hidden-struggles-behind-my-im-fine-smile\/","title":{"rendered":"The Hidden Struggles Behind My \u201cI\u2019m Fine\u201d Smile"},"content":{"rendered":"
I still remember the last time I said \u201cI\u2019m fine\u201d and meant none of it. I held a coffee cup with both hands and let the steam blur my face while my chest did a slow, private tremor.<\/p>\n
Saying those words felt safer than explaining the ache beneath my ribs \u2014 the ache that knows the names of all the small betrayals: missed plans, a body that won\u2019t obey, an inbox that outlives my energy.<\/p>\n
This piece is for the people who say \u201cI\u2019m fine\u201d to keep the peace, and for the people who love them and want to know what those three words might be hiding.<\/p>\n
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Why We Learn To Say \u201cI\u2019m Fine\u201d<\/h2>\n
Saying \u201cI\u2019m fine\u201d is a social shorthand. It smooths conversations, ends probing questions, and keeps us from having to stage-manage vulnerability.<\/p>\n
But beneath that shorthand are other languages: fatigue, grief, shame, fear, and a deep desire not to be a burden.<\/p>\n
Over time, the practice of smoothing becomes a habit \u2014 and a shelter that feels necessary until it becomes a prison.<\/p>\n
The Two Kinds Of \u201cI\u2019m Fine\u201d<\/h3>\n
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Default Politeness \u201cI\u2019m Fine\u201d<\/strong> \u2014 the tiny white lie we tell in elevator conversations. It\u2019s usually harmless and often accurate on the surface.<\/li>\n
Protective \u201cI\u2019m Fine\u201d<\/strong> \u2014 a shield shaped like a smile. It hides chronic pain, mental illness, grief, or a life that feels heavy. It\u2019s not meant to deceive; it\u2019s meant to preserve safety.<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n
I want to unpeel the second kind \u2014 not to shame it, but to make it legible so that we can trade concealment for connection when we choose.<\/p>\n
How To Read The Face That Says \u201cI\u2019m Fine\u201d<\/h2>\n
When someone smiles and says they\u2019re fine, there are ways to listen beyond the words.<\/p>\n
The face is a ledger: micro-pauses, small tightness in the jaw, a delayed laugh, eyes that look through you rather than at you.<\/p>\n
The voice might tilt a hair higher, or the sentence might come out too fast \u2014 a hurried repair job.<\/p>\n
I\u2019m not asking you to become a detective. I\u2019m asking you to learn a new posture: curiosity that respects dignity. A posture that says, \u201cI notice, and I\u2019m here if you want to tell me more.\u201d That is enough to break the spell of solitude.<\/p>\n
The Hidden Struggles \u2014 A Practical Breakdown<\/h2>\n
Below is a guide to common hidden struggles behind \u201cI\u2019m fine.\u201d For each, I give what it feels like, how it often looks from the outside, and a single, concrete thing you can do right now if you\u2019re the one suffering \u2014 and if you\u2019re the one who cares about someone who\u2019s suffering.<\/p>\n
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Hidden Struggle<\/th>\n
What It Feels Like (Inside)<\/th>\n
How It Appears (Outside)<\/th>\n
What You Can Try Right Now<\/th>\n<\/tr>\n<\/thead>\n
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Chronic Pain \/ Invisible Illness<\/td>\n
A constant low-grade alarm; small movements cost effort<\/td>\n
Smiles, cancellations, appearing \u201cfine\u201d in short outings<\/td>\n
Name the limit: tell one person a single boundary today<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n
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Fatigue \/ Burnout<\/td>\n
Brain like cotton, joy a distant radio<\/td>\n
Work done but slower; forgotten commitments<\/td>\n
Schedule a 20-minute rest break and protect it<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n
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Anxiety<\/td>\n
A restless, pulsing hum under calm<\/td>\n
Reassurance-seeking or avoidance<\/td>\n
Ground for 60 seconds: name 5 things you see, 4 you can touch<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n
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Depression<\/td>\n
A fog of indifference, loss of color<\/td>\n
Quiet withdrawal or forced cheer<\/td>\n
Ask for one tiny help \u2014 a short walk or one meal cooked<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n
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Grief<\/td>\n
Memory like an ache; sudden sharpness in ordinary moments<\/td>\n
Laughing too soon, retelling the same story<\/td>\n
Allow a small ritual: light a candle or write one sentence<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n
Swap one \u201cyes\u201d for a \u201cno\u201d today \u2014 practice the phrasing<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n
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Sensory Overwhelm \/ PTSD<\/td>\n
Everyday stimuli can be raw and triggering<\/td>\n
Avoids crowded places; sudden shutdowns<\/td>\n
Create a short exit plan for public spaces (route + time)<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n
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Social Exhaustion \/ Misophonia<\/td>\n
Being with people uses energy like currency<\/td>\n
Canceling social plans at the last minute<\/td>\n
Send an honest text: \u201cI\u2019m low-energy today, can we reschedule?\u201d<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<\/tbody>\n<\/table>\n
The Language Of Small, Precise Boundaries<\/h2>\n
When you\u2019re hiding how you really feel, boundaries can feel like betrayals or impossible luxuries.<\/p>\n
But boundaries are the scaffolding of recovery \u2014 small, practical rules you set to preserve energy and dignity. They aren\u2019t dramatic; they are tactical.<\/p>\n
A Few Boundary Scripts You Can Use<\/h3>\n
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\u201cI\u2019d love to, but I\u2019m not up for crowds tonight. Can we plan a quiet catch-up?\u201d<\/li>\n
\u201cI need to sit this one out. I\u2019ll join next time when I can fully enjoy it.\u201d<\/li>\n
\u201cI want to be honest: I\u2019m managing a lot right now. I might be quiet, but I do care.\u201d<\/li>\n
\u201cIt helps me when plans are firm. Can we lock the time, or I\u2019ll need to pass?\u201d<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n
Say these aloud once. They will feel strange because you\u2019re breaking a habit. That strangeness is proof of change.<\/p>\n
Why People Hide: A Quick Psychology Primer<\/h2>\n
At a simple level, hiding protects social capital: love, safety, and belonging. There are deeper currents, too.<\/p>\n
Shame whispers, \u201cIf they knew, they\u2019d leave.\u201d Pride says, \u201cYou must be strong.\u201d<\/p>\n
There\u2019s also a practical truth: sometimes the world is not set up to hold the things that would make us vulnerable. The combination of shame + practicality = the habitual \u201cI\u2019m fine.\u201d<\/p>\n
Understanding the logic doesn\u2019t excuse the harm, but it gives us tools. We can shift one small logic at a time: replace \u201cI must not bother\u201d with \u201cI can tell one person if I choose.\u201d Replace \u201cI should manage alone\u201d with \u201cIt\u2019s okay to accept help.\u201d<\/p>\n
How To Start Telling The Truth \u2014 Gentle Steps<\/h2>\n
Truth-telling is a skill. Like any skill, start small, practice, and expect awkwardness.<\/p>\n
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Choose One Person.<\/strong> Pick someone who has shown consistent warmth. No perfection required.<\/li>\n
Pick One Moment.<\/strong> Maybe it\u2019s a text, maybe tea. Keep it short: one sentence + one ask.<\/li>\n
State The Fact, Not The Whole Story.<\/strong> \u201cI\u2019m having more bad days than good right now.\u201d That\u2019s enough.<\/li>\n
Offer A Way They Can Help.<\/strong> \u201cIf you can just check in on Tuesdays, it helps.\u201d<\/li>\n
Practice A Script For When You Need Space.<\/strong> \u201cI appreciate you \u2014 I need quiet and will call when I can.\u201d<\/li>\n<\/ol>\n
These steps are small because truth demands a container before it can open into a full conversation.<\/p>\n
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\u201cWhat To Say\u201d \u2014 Short Scripts For Different Scenarios<\/h2>\n
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Scenario<\/th>\n
Short Script (Say It)<\/th>\n
If You\u2019re Responding (Listener Script)<\/th>\n<\/tr>\n<\/thead>\n
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\n
When You Feel Overwhelmed At Work<\/td>\n
\u201cI\u2019m overloaded today \u2014 I need to pause on this task.\u201d<\/td>\n
\u201cThanks for telling me. Take what you need; we\u2019ll adjust the timeline.\u201d<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n
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When Friends Invite You Out<\/td>\n
\u201cI can\u2019t do that tonight, but I\u2019d love a call instead.\u201d<\/td>\n
\u201cTotally fine. Want to schedule a call now?\u201d<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n
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When Family Pushes For \u2018Just One More Thing\u2019<\/td>\n
\u201cI can do that in a week, not today.\u201d<\/td>\n
\u201cOkay. I\u2019ll remind you next week.\u201d<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n
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When You Need A Check-In<\/td>\n
\u201cWould you mind checking in tomorrow?\u201d<\/td>\n
\u201cOf course \u2014 I\u2019ll message at 10 am.\u201d<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n
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When You\u2019re Hiding Pain<\/td>\n
\u201cI\u2019m having a tough week. I might be quiet.\u201d<\/td>\n
\u201cI\u2019m here. No pressure \u2014 rest as you need.\u201d<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<\/tbody>\n<\/table>\n
The Costs Of Hiding \u2014 For You And For Others<\/h2>\n
Hiding feels protective, but it has costs.<\/p>\n
For You<\/h3>\n
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Emotional isolation: you become a person who carries alone.<\/li>\n
Exacerbated symptoms: stress and secrecy worsen physical and mental pain.<\/li>\n
Diminished support networks: friends grow uncertain of when to help.<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n
For Others<\/h3>\n
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Loved ones feel shut out, helpless, or anxious.<\/li>\n
Misunderstandings grow into resentments.<\/li>\n
People may misread your silence for indifference.<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n
Naming costs are not to blame. It\u2019s inventory. Once you see the ledger, you can choose where to spend energy differently.<\/p>\n
Rituals That Help: Small Practices With Big Effects<\/h2>\n
Rituals are tiny commitments that translate intention into habit. They don\u2019t fix everything \u2014 they make the day less slippery.<\/p>\n
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The 10-Minute Check-In:<\/strong> Every morning, write one sentence: how you are and one tiny need.<\/li>\n
The Pause Point:<\/strong> Commit to a two-minute breathing pause before important conversations.<\/li>\n
The Cancel Grace:<\/strong> When you cancel plans, send one honest line: \u201cI\u2019m sorry \u2014 I\u2019m not up for it.\u201d<\/li>\n
The Energy Bank:<\/strong> Track one activity that drains and one that fills you each week.<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n
Rituals reduce the energy cost of decisions. They make the \u201cI\u2019m fine\u201d less automatic and give you a moment to choose.<\/p>\n
How To Ask For Help Without Feeling Weak<\/h2>\n
Asking for help feels like exposure. So frame it as a skill, not a failing.<\/p>\n
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Be Specific.<\/strong> \u201cCan you pick up groceries?\u201d beats \u201cHelp me.\u201d<\/li>\n
Limit The Ask.<\/strong> Small requests are easier to accept: one meal, one phone call, one errand.<\/li>\n
Reciprocate In Tiny Ways.<\/strong> Offer something small later \u2014 an acknowledgment, a baked oat, a handwritten note.<\/li>\n
Script It:<\/strong> \u201cI\u2019m needing help with X this week. If you can do Y, I\u2019d be so grateful.\u201d<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n
People want to help when they know how. The clearer you ask, the more likely they\u2019ll say yes.<\/p>\n
The Role Of Professional Help: Not A First Resort, But A Resource<\/h2>\n
Some struggles require trained support. Therapy, medical treatment, or specialist care can be a practical companion.<\/p>\n
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Therapy is a place to practice truth-telling and boundary setting.<\/li>\n
Medical care can validate invisible symptoms and give tools.<\/li>\n
Peer support groups reduce isolation and normalize the struggle.<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n
If you\u2019re wary of labels \u2014 that\u2019s okay. Think of professional help as an additional tool, not a verdict.<\/p>\n
What To Do If You\u2019re The Loved One Hearing \u201cI\u2019m Fine\u201d<\/h2>\n
If someone you care about says they\u2019re fine and you sense otherwise, here\u2019s a gentle roadmap.<\/p>\n
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Offer Presence, Not Interrogation.<\/strong> A short line: \u201cI\u2019m here if you want to talk.\u201d<\/li>\n
Ask Permission To Help.<\/strong> \u201cWould it help if I checked in tomorrow?\u201d vs. \u201cLet me help.\u201d<\/li>\n
Respect Refusal.<\/strong> If they decline, say: \u201cOkay. I\u2019ll be here when you\u2019re ready.\u201d<\/li>\n
Follow Through.<\/strong> If you offered a check-in, do it. Reliability builds trust.<\/li>\n<\/ol>\n
The most healing thing is not the perfect phrase; it\u2019s consistent, quiet care.<\/p>\n
Common Missteps And Better Alternatives<\/h2>\n
\n\n
\n
Common Response<\/th>\n
Why It Hurts<\/th>\n
Better Alternative<\/th>\n<\/tr>\n<\/thead>\n
\n
\n
\u201cIt\u2019s not that bad, you\u2019ll get over it.\u201d<\/td>\n
Minimizes experience<\/td>\n
\u201cI can\u2019t imagine how hard this is. I\u2019m here.\u201d<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n
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Offering Unsolicited Advice<\/td>\n
Feels like dismissal<\/td>\n
Ask: \u201cWould you like suggestions, or just to vent?\u201d<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n
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Pressuring For Details<\/td>\n
Feels invasive<\/td>\n
\u201cYou don\u2019t have to share details. I just want you to know I care.\u201d<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n
\n
Treating Withdrawal As Rejection<\/td>\n
Increases shame<\/td>\n
\u201cI notice you\u2019ve been quiet \u2014 I\u2019m here when you\u2019re ready.\u201d<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<\/tbody>\n<\/table>\n
Everyday Tools For Self-Soothing<\/h2>\n
When the mask feels heavy, little tools can steady you.<\/p>\n
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The Sensory Anchor:<\/strong> Carry a cloth or stone you can touch to ground yourself.<\/li>\n
Micro-Movements:<\/strong> Two-minute stretches that restore circulation and presence.<\/li>\n
Sound Bubbles:<\/strong> A playlist for when words are too much.<\/li>\n
Time-Boxing:<\/strong> Give yourself permission to lie down for a fixed, short period and then re-evaluate.<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n
The aim is not to eliminate pain but to make it liveable in the moment.<\/p>\n
On Shame And The Culture Of Productivity<\/h2>\n
We live in a culture that praises productivity and equates rest with failure. This fuels the habit of hiding. Rest is not laziness; it is maintenance.<\/p>\n
If you\u2019re used to proving worth through output, try reframing: what if your worth isn\u2019t a measure of productivity but a steady presence? This reframe is a revolution in small acts.<\/p>\n
When The Smile Is A Boundary \u2014 And When It\u2019s A Surrender<\/h2>\n
Sometimes the smile is an empowered choice: you are protecting yourself from a conversation that will be harmful, and that\u2019s valid. Other times it\u2019s surrender \u2014 an avoidance born of shame. The difference is consent.<\/p>\n
When you choose a smile, know why you chose it. When it\u2019s surrendered, consider what small next step could be honest and safe.<\/p>\n
How To Rebuild Trust After \u201cI\u2019m Fine\u201d Became Habit<\/h2>\n
If you\u2019ve repeatedly hidden the truth, loved ones may be skeptical when you change. Rebuilding trust is slow and practical.<\/p>\n
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Small Honest Moves:<\/strong> One small, truthful disclosure every week.<\/li>\n
Consistency Over Explanation:<\/strong> Do the thing you said you\u2019d do.<\/li>\n
Ask For Patience:<\/strong> \u201cI\u2019m trying to be more honest. I know it will feel strange.\u201d<\/li>\n
Accept Skepticism:<\/strong> It\u2019s reasonable. Don\u2019t argue; show up.<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n
Trust is mended by reliability more than eloquence.<\/p>\n
The Mechanics Of A Safe Disclosure<\/h2>\n
When you\u2019re ready to say more, set up a simple architecture:<\/p>\n
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Time and Place.<\/strong> Choose a moment when neither of you is rushed.<\/li>\n
Start Small.<\/strong> One sentence about how you\u2019re feeling.<\/li>\n
Name Limits.<\/strong> \u201cI can talk for 15 minutes,\u201d or \u201cI won\u2019t be able to explain everything.\u201d<\/li>\n
Offer A Way Forward.<\/strong> \u201cIf you want to help, here\u2019s one thing you can do.\u201d<\/li>\n
End With A Self-Care Plan.<\/strong> \u201cI\u2019ll rest after this and text you later.\u201d<\/li>\n<\/ol>\n
This structure protects both people and keeps the disclosure humane.<\/p>\n
Frequently Asked Questions (FAQs)<\/h2>\n
Why Do I Feel Guilty For Not Being \u201cOkay\u201d?<\/h3>\n
Guilt often arrives because you\u2019re comparing your inner story to a cultural ideal: that strong people are always capable. Guilt is not truth; it\u2019s a feeling you can notice.<\/p>\n
Address it practically: name the guilt, ask what it wants (usually safety), and then decide on one small action that creates safety (a boundary, a support call, a rest).<\/p>\n
How Do I Tell Someone Without Overwhelming Them?<\/h3>\n
You don\u2019t owe anyone your entire inner life all at once. Start with one succinct sentence and a clear ask. People can absorb manageable pieces of information. Also, give them permission to have their own limits: \u201cI want to share; tell me if you need a pause.\u201d<\/p>\n
Will Being Honest Make Me A Burden?<\/h3>\n
People who care about you want to support you in ways that are possible for them. When you make small, specific asks, you make it easier for them to help. If someone consistently refuses support, that\u2019s their boundary \u2014 not a reflection of your worth.<\/p>\n
How Do I Know If I Need Professional Help?<\/h3>\n
If the struggle persists for weeks, interferes with daily functioning, leads to thoughts of self-harm, or you feel stuck despite trying small changes, professional help is a wise next step. Therapy, a trusted doctor, or peer support groups can offer targeted tools.<\/p>\n
What If I\u2019m Afraid Of Being Labeled \u201cNeedy\u201d?<\/h3>\n
Labels can sting, but the bravery of admitting need often shifts relationships toward honesty. Neediness becomes less harmful when matched with reciprocity and small acts of self-care. Practice asking in ways that are bounded and actionable.<\/p>\n
How Do I Support Someone Who Keeps Saying \u201cI\u2019m Fine\u201d?<\/h3>\n
Offer presence without pressure. Validate rather than fix. Make small offers and follow through. If they refuse help, respect their choice and keep the invitation open. Reliability over rhetoric.<\/p>\n
A Short Checklist To Break The \u201cI\u2019m Fine\u201d Habit<\/h2>\n
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Choose one person to tell something small this week.<\/li>\n
Practice one short boundary script aloud three times.<\/li>\n
Create one tiny ritual for rest (10 minutes).<\/li>\n
Send a message: \u201cI\u2019m having a hard day \u2014 can we chat later?\u201d (if you want a check-in)<\/li>\n
Mark an appointment to do one thing that fills you (a walk, a tea, a nap).<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n
Do one item. A single completed checkbox contains a surprising amount of courage.<\/p>\n
Closing Thoughts: The Ethics Of Soft Honesty<\/h2>\n
There is an ethics to honesty that is gentle, not brutal. Soft honesty chooses the timing, respects dignity, and keeps harm minimal while opening the room for care. You don\u2019t have to be completely transparent all the time.<\/p>\n
You can be strategic, surgical even, with the truth you choose to tell. The point is not perfection; it\u2019s movement \u2014 a modest reorientation so that \u201cI\u2019m fine\u201d becomes one of many tools rather than your only defense.<\/p>\n
I\u2019ll leave you with a promise I learned the hard way: truth-telling does not always make things better immediately, but it makes them real. And when the world knows the truth, even a little of it, you begin to trade the exhausting labor of performance for the quieter, steadier labor of living.<\/p>\n
Final Invitation<\/h2>\n
If you read this and felt seen, hold that feeling. If you read this and thought of someone, consider offering them one of the scripts above.<\/p>\n
If you read this and kept thinking, \u201cThat\u2019s me,\u201d choose one tiny action from the checklist. Small acts compound. A single honest sentence can be the start of a different season.<\/p>\n
You are not a burden for having limits. You are learning a new language \u2014 the language of asking, of choosing boundaries, of being human. Speak it slowly. Speak it kindly. You\u2019ll be surprised who leans in to listen.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I still remember the last time I said \u201cI\u2019m fine\u201d and meant none of it. I held a coffee cup with both hands and let the steam blur my face while my chest did a slow, private tremor. Saying those words felt safer than explaining the ache beneath my ribs \u2014 the ache that knows…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[46],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3117","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-fibromyalgia"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/justpaste.in\/blogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3117","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/justpaste.in\/blogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/justpaste.in\/blogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/justpaste.in\/blogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/justpaste.in\/blogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=3117"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/justpaste.in\/blogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3117\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/justpaste.in\/blogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=3117"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/justpaste.in\/blogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=3117"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/justpaste.in\/blogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=3117"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
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